#November2025

• • November2025

  I am broken on the wheel of trying to manage hospital stuff; trying to do a big bid for some money to be able to continue some R&D work; pitching for more work work;

  So tired. Can’t sleep. Brain fried. Physically glitching.

  I’m burning my social media, because frankly, it’s like screaming into the void. I don’t have any friends there. Occasionally, people laugh at some of the things I say, but I’m increasingly beginning to think it’s the kind of laughter you hear when you approach a stranger in the street and ask them where they got that lovely dress.

• • November2025

  Thinking about my values… goodness, kindness, ya-da ya-da ya-da… what specific things do I care about and want to change in my life

  • Having fewer things, but better things, and the things I want.
  • Taking control of money - from day-to-day finances to pensions, insurances and mortgages
  • Creating more time to do more creating. I like making things, both digital and physical. I like making my space look nice.
  • I should clean more. I should do all the cleaning.

  How to start this?

  I started thinking about the barriers